Work

I started work last Thursday as a temp Hr administrator.

I waited almost one month for this job but well its worth the wait because the company is reputable and it is near my house.

What is more surprising is that there is another person joining me in the same role too. I’m thankful that I got a working partner. She is one year younger than me and we hit it off pretty well from the first day we met.
I do not know how I suddenly became so sociable but ever since then we had have so much fun working together.

Work is mostly got to do with filing and filling in some data on Microsoft excel. Pretty easy as compared to the other jobs I had worked before. Therefore work has been running really smoothly so far with friendly colleagues and working environment.

To me the working environment and the people there really makes the difference to the energy towards work. For the first time, even though work is kind of boring but I’m excited to go to work because of the people there.
I’m thankful to God for all these things.

Learning to be certain in God even in an uncertain world

Everything except God is uncertain in the long run.

One small example would be my first day of work today. I was supposed to start work today according to my agency but apparently there was mis-communication between the agency and my manager as she was not in today. So i waited in vain for an hour in the building to only find out that my work is delayed to tomorrow. I was definitely annoyed, and i indulge in mac breakfast to seek some form of comfort haha.  So i have another free day to myself.

I have always like to be in control of my own life. I make sure that whatever actions i do, i know the outcome of that before it even happens. Life has shown me that not everything can be effectively predictable no matter how much i put effort into making it predictable. I invest myself into friendships in which some do not last. I went into a job thinking i am doing HR work, and i did scheduling work instead. It is so easy for me to become cynical when things do not go the way i wanted it to be.

Definitely it is not easy for me to surrender everything to God even though i know that God is the same yesterday, today and forever. The fact of relinquishing control makes me feel insecure. In the past whenever i encounter any problems whether big or small, even though i know that there is a God up there who can help carry some of my burdens, i still stubbornly took on all my burdens myself because of my need of control. As a result, i became mentally and emotionally exhausted.

I thank God that He never changes and He always accept me back when I turn back to Him. It’s like He is opening his arms to me and welcoming me back when I turn back to him even though I upset Him a lot. And as I get closer to Him by praying, reading the bible, I can feel that He is close to me and guiding me to understand Him better. I have better perspectives of things and I have learnt what makes Him happy and sad. I have become more aware of my identity in Him as a child of God and that I do not need to prove my self worth anymore because my self worth is already paid for by Jesus when He die on the cross for my sins. I feel liberated.

This afternoon, I just randomly decided to listen to Christian songs and spend some quiet time worshipping God. I feel really awesome as I was worshipping Him because I sense His presence and His comfort. And I learnt that it is especially important to be certain of God, to have faith in Him no matter how uncertain things may be. Because sometimes it is my lack of faith that stops God from taking action to help me or to fully use me.

Learning to have faith in God in all circumstances is not something that can be picked up overnight. It is a daily effort, day in and out to focus my perspective on God and to see things from His perspective. I believe that it is not fully attainable and I am learning to entrust everything to Him and depend on Him daily for His word and encouragement.

God did not promise us that we will be free from troubles on this earth, but He promise us that He will be with us all the time, to help us in our times of trials as we are slowly transformed into His image. I think that is the best assurance I can get, knowing that He is with me all the time. 🙂

Next Part of Life

Actually i wanted to be more active in blogging on certain topics i am concerned about. But my mind has been kind of lazy and the engines are kind of slow so i shall not blog on that at the moment.

Yes what is my next part of life?

I am going to work from this Wednesday all the way to 20 June in IBM as temp HR administrator. I am happy that i am working in a MNC company. I waited one month for this job, and i hope that my waiting will not be in vain but that i will enjoy working there. Office wear to me is still a drag because its not so comfortable although i wore it for many times. But i am thankful that the working place is near my house 🙂

I submitted my uni application for Bachelor of Arts (Psychology) to James Cook University today. If everything goes smoothly, i will be starting classes on 23 June. I know that studying psychology is going to be really challenging because of all the thesis i have to write up and i am praying to God to guide me when the time comes.  I will be studying that for two years.  The fees are expensive and i hope to repay my dad in the future quickly.

Although life is unpredictable, the best way is to make plans and stick to it.

So many bad events have been happening around the world recently and the frequency of those are increasing every year. Nobody can predict or stop anything. The world is becoming more and more chaotic. Even in the midst of all these crisis, i hope that everybody learn to truly recognize what matters and what does not matter. Time is the currency of life, not money. Most importantly i pray that everybody will come to know God intimatelyand know that despite all these bad events that are occurring, He is in control.

Eternal Hope

Life is unpredictable, especially in terms of not knowing when death will come.

I have not experienced any grief for a death for a close one because everybody is still alive and i thank God for that.

But i know that nobody can live forever and it is just a matter of time before death comes to take away people. I won’t know how exactly i react when it happens but i can never mentally prepare the emotions beforehand because i never experienced it before.

I think this is one of the reasons why adults are more likely to get more cynical as they get older. Because when adults were younger, they thought they could control everything and everything will go fine as long as they do their best. Studying as a student is predictable because you reap what you sow. But when you step into the working world, its not just simply putting in your best and expecting the results to come immediately but you also have to be aware of the other underlying factors that may affect the results and sometimes despite all the best you have given, your efforts come to naught.  When you get older, the people around you get older too and they will start leaving you in death due to different reasons. You cannot control when they die and you have to learn how to accept it and let it go.

Have you ever wonder what happens after you die? Most people are afraid of death, mainly because they do not know what happens after they die and they do not want to separate from their loved ones on Earth.

I have to say this because there is a God who truly love us.

There is a Heaven and there is a Hell as well. We won’t simply fade off into nothing when we die, we are more than a body, we have a soul too. The soul is the one that makes you question what is your purpose in life because there is definitely something more than what we eat, work/study and sleep.

There are so many religions out there and because of that, nobody knows who is the real deal. Some people believe all Gods are the same and believe in all. Some people don’t even believe at all because they think that they are solely in charge of their destiny on earth and after they die, that is it.  There are also people who firmly believe in one religion throughout their lives.

I am a Christian and yes i believe that my God is real. God is good and is real.  He is God with unconditional love, who loves all of us even though we are imperfect. God wants to have a relationship with us, not just simply offering sacrifices to him only. God is perfect and it is impossible for us to have a relationship with Him unless we are perfect too. There is no one on earth who can truly say that he/she has never done any bad thing at all for the whole of his/her life. Lying is a bad thing, just like murdering. Both are bad things. So we are all imperfect and we should be forever separated from God because of our bad things.

People may ask,” If God really love us and want to have a relationship with us, then why we are imperfect, shouldn’t we be perfect as well?”  Actually when God first created us, He created us to be perfect in His sight. He created Adam and Eve and He put them on earth to take care of the earth.  Everything on earth was perfect, God let them eat anything except for the fruit from  one tree which contained knowledge of both good and evil. He told them that if they eat that, they will die. God has a relationship with them on the Earth and He was with them. But there is a devil, a fallen angel Satan who hated God and he tricked  Adam and Eve into eating the fruit from that forbidden tree by giving them two ideas that created doubts towards God. The two questions were: Are you sure God do not let you eat the fruit from all the trees in the garden? This made them start having doubts. Satan also convinced them that they will not die if they eat that forbidden fruit and they will be like God when they eat that.  This made them think that they can be like God and they have some feelings of wanting to be God, as a result both of them ate the fruit.  As a result, they are doomed to be separated from God in death because evil has entered into them and they become imperfect.

But God is not a merciless God. He created us and He loves us dearly for we are created in His image. He does not want us to be condemned to be separated from Him eternally. He knows that we are all imperfect and no matter how hard we tried to be perfect, we will forever fall short from His standards. So He send his one and only Perfect Son, Jesus to come down to earth, to be a human like us and die for us so that we can be reconciled to Him. Jesus the Son of God, took on our earthly flesh, was a perfect man living on earth and He died for us to let us be connected to God once again. But it is not complete yet, for Jesus cannot just die. Death is the eternal separation from God. Jesus rose on the third day, conquering death and this shows us that Jesus have defeated death for us so that we can be connected to God for eternity.

All God wants us to do is to believe in Him, to believe that God send his Son, Jesus, to die for our sins and that it is through Jesus that we are saved and made right with God. It is not good works that save us, it is the grace and love that God has given us so that we can have a relationship with Him.  Of course that does not mean that we can continue on to sin after believing in Him, it is like stepping on God Himself. We have to stop doing those bad stuff and developed new and good habits. Good works are not meant to magnify ourselves, it is simply because we have received the unconditional love from God and we want everybody to know how much God loves them, that good works is one of the examples on how God actually really loves us.

I know that for people to truly believe in God, they have to experience it themselves. So it is not possible for anybody reading this to immediately believe in God after that. What draws people to God is the unconditional love that He gives them. Yes God is real and good. My job here is to tell you the truth, to tell you what Christianity is about and God will do the rest. I really pray that you will come to know and experience the love of Christ one day for He is real and He truly loves us and He wants us to be in Heaven with Him for all eternity.