Approaching the end of first semester in University

August so far has been a really busy month for me.

Busy with school assignments. Busy with catching up with my cousins from Germany who came here to stay for a month. Busy with catching up with some friends. Just simply being busy.

Thank God that i have just about 3 more assignments to go before the final exams and then i can finally enjoy my 3 weeks semester break. 

 I always have this bad tendency to be super reliant on myself when i am accomplishing difficult tasks and not entrusting my worries to God. I am more obsessed with trying to solve the problems on my own entirely. And i did just that for my school assignments. Therefore i always end up really tired and frustrated and even fell sick. 

I gotten a fever on Tuesday night and thank God that i was well by Wednesday morning. My sister calls this fever weird because when my temperature was at 38.9 degrees, i still feel quite fine in my head and the fact that i recover within a few hours. I believe it is God’s grace that He help me to recover so quickly. I think that it is a reminder to me once again i cannot do everything by myself, after all i am imperfect too. Right now i am having a sore throat. Could not talk much in school to my friends and i feel annoyed but i am doing my best to quickly recover from it. 

By end of next month, my first semester would have ended. So far so good i would say although i really dislike all the pressing tight deadlines. But it is still doable as long as i do not procrastinate. I would need to find a balance between work and rest. The friends that i have made with so far are all really nice people and i like the fact that i can be authentic without being judged. Everybody is mature enough to accept that everybody is different in personalities. 

I enjoyed my course so far. The ideas and concepts taught really helped me to gain a bigger perspective on the world and the people around me. I never regretted taking psychology no matter how hard things may get. I am still on the way to discovering my future career paths because future is really unpredictable. So one step at a time. 

 

To be the person whom God created me to be

“To love and be loved. To have and to hold. To give just to bless. To live and not fear. To laugh and be free. To always hope and not despair. To live as a light in dark places. To give generously and not seek selfish gain.

To know when to speak and when to be silent. To be kind and to forgive when other’s aren’t. To believe and trust God’s Word. To have courage to face my doubts with faith. To nurture and to grow. To care and be cared for. To be brave enough to seek reconciliation and peace.

To be discipled and disciple others. To become more like Christ and die to self. To not be fake, flippant, or ‘Christianese’, but authentic, genuine, and honest. To be the face of Jesus to those who don’t know it and make His name famous. To look to other’s interests more than my own. To be humble and live a life of conviction and repentance. To give grace and not judge by committing to listen, understand, and learn from others.

To serve the Lord alone and not live for the approval or acceptance of others. To accept grace for myself and stop holding myself to a self-imposed standard of perfectionism in what I do. To accept that mess is a part of being in the process. To remember God delights in me just as I am. To resist my drive to always want to please others. To put sin to death and live by the Spirit. To abide in God’s love and presence daily. To be resilient and not give up. To be disciplined and persistent. To be patient and long-suffering.

To not live in the shadows of the past but the light of today. To have open hands and a grateful heart. To have a tongue that is not bitter but sweet. To seek peace and wisdom. To fear the Lord. To keep a tender heart that is wholly surrendered to my Lord. To live and speak the truth and break down lies. To never lose sight of the cross and power of the resurrection. To share the good news and be a living testimony of it. To worship and praise even when I don’t ‘feel’ like it, because God is worthy. To live as a citizen of heaven. To obey and not complain. To work with my hands. To choose joy. To be beautiful in the eyes of my Maker and satisfied in how He sees me. To havr arms that are open and embrace people who need to be loved by touch. To rejoice and be glad; to always be thankful. To have a pure heart and mind. To live a holy life in fear of the Lord. To honor God in all my relationships. To live a life of prayer and devotion to interceeding for others.

To know my identity in Christ. To speak words of life, encouragement, and truth into others. To be attentive and obedient to the Holy Spirit. To live with abandon to loving God with everything I am and everything I do. To hold nothing back. To choose Him above all else. To love God with everything within me and overflow His love to everyone I come in contact with. To live for the glory of God and the Kingdom that is eternal. To be the person God created me to be.”

August: Month of Essays

This month i will be fretting about my essays.

I have 3 essays to complete by mid to end august. It is the first time doing a psychology essay so i am pretty stressed over it. I can’t wait to get this done and over with. I really want to go on a rampage about how annoying i find all these essays are but it is pointless so i shall not go there. 

Anyway i am thankful for God’s constant love and presence in my life. I know that He hears my prayers and sometimes He will answer it immediately. I do not know how to exactly pinpoint out in details on how He have helped me in certain ways because it sounded more of a coincidence but i don’t believe in coincidences. I believe in God’s perfect timing. 

One example would be last week. I was going to turn up late for class because i miscalculated my travelling time. Apparently the lesson was delayed by 10 mins because the room was locked and i arrive just in time when the lesson started. I was still late but not that late. 

Another tiny example would be keeping my clothes into my house just in time before the rain started pouring yesterday. 

I experienced God’s grace in all these just in time moments. There are so many countless times that i encountered these just in time situations and i know the term lucky is definitely not suitable to describe these. But rather being thankful for experiencing God’s grace. For i do not deserve any of this but it is because of who God is.