Since secondary school, I have been doing many personality tests. It is an attempt to give myself an identity, that I know what my strengths and weaknesses are and most importantly to know that I’m not totally weird in this world. It is like a buffer for my insecurities back then because i was bullied in school and I find myself not being able to fit in with everyone else.
So from there until now, I became more interested in this area especially because it has helped me to understand people better. I somehow am able to read people better because I have this knowledge and I learn how to observe.
According to the MBTI, I am a INFJ. When I first read the personality description, I was happy because it really describes me accurately. I am not that weird after all. And as I ask my friends to do the test too, I find it more believable because of how it accurately describes my friends too. Even though this test is not really reliable in the psychology field, but I am amazed by how accurate it could be. It’s even better than the big five personality test.
So if I were to describe myself, infj would be one of the major parts that I would say. There is nothing wrong about it actually.
Just that recently I start to realise that it can be bad also. Especially when people start to justify their actions by their personality type. Like shrinking or avoiding certain stuff just because their personality type is not meant for those stuff or acting out of hand because they can’t help it. Like how introverts give plenty of excuses on not social zing with people because they can’t ( when actually they can if they are brave enough) and extroverts saying they can’t live without people ( they can if they learnt to cultivate that).
It’s like we are setting up our own limitations and strengths before we even attempt to try it out first. We reached a definite conclusion so quickly. Who we are now may not be the same years from now because we are humans and we can change. Our personality is not fixed, it is variable and influenced by the experiences we go through and the lessons we picked up along the way.
Personality tests and descriptions can be addicting because we want to have an identity. In fact we need to have one. There is nothing wrong with doing it and believing in it. It only becomes wrong when a person believes it to the extent whereby he set and revolves his life around the strengths and weaknesses according to his personality type.
We all have the opportunity to grow and turn our weaknesses into strengths. All we need is courage. An introvert can be more extroverted and vice versa. People who are more sensitive can also be logical thinkers and vice versa. We are not that fixed. Even though we may have certain inclination to act in a certain way, but we can choose to act differently if we want to.
So I believe that I can be more than what infj says of me. I can be more versatile and flexible. I can grow better and turn my weakness into strengths. God did not create humans who are fixed in personality, he has given us the freedom to develop in different ways and it is up to us to decide who we want to become today and in the future.