Enough

This week i had been spending my time at home mostly to study for my remaining two examinations next week.

I read and re-read the slides till i am sick of it. Hopefully all the info went in.

I was feeling down too due to overthinking. Like i got lots of free time at home so i ended up overthinking -.-‘

I thought about how i am lacking in so many areas of my life. From being a student to a daughter to a leader to being a woman. You can imagine how my thoughts went out of control. I feel suffocated when i think of them all at once. I did not turn to God at all because i was stubborn in my own self pity. Of course i feel emotionally and mentally tired when i am trying to carry this all on my own.

But now i have enough of it. Enough of thinking how lacking i am. I have enough for being so foolish. I have reached a point where i feel that if i think of that any longer, i must be an idiot. So what if i lack in this and that? I will not waste my time thinking of that because i can use my time to do something better to improve myself. I should stop being upset at myself and upsetting God with my thoughts too. I will not let my life go to waste.

I want to be a person who brings strength and optimism to the people i encounter and be used by God for His purpose in my life.

Tumblr Quotes

I have been on Tumblr since 2012 and have been using it to follow blogs of interest from personality types to kpop bands to inspirational quotes. I retweeted so many inspirational quotes that my entire tumblr is just filled with words. Through inspirational quotes, the power of words is being used in a very powerful way that it can uplift people and i have been uplifted by these quotes time to time again. Just want to share a few of these quotes here to encourage and remind myself of what i stand for.

1.

THE WORST BULLIES YOU WILL EVER ENCOUNTER IN YOUR LIFE ARE YOUR OWN THOUGHTS.

Bryant H. McGill (via bryantmcgill)(via the-psychology-blog)

THE BEST PEOPLE POSSESS A FEELING FOR BEAUTY, THE COURAGE TO TAKE RISKS, THE DISCIPLINE TO TELL THE TRUTH, THE CAPACITY FOR SACRIFICE. IRONICALLY, THEIR VIRTUES MAKE THEM VULNERABLE; THEY ARE OFTEN WOUNDED, SOMETIMES DESTROYED.

Ernest Hemingway (via wordsthat-speak)(via infjnights)

THERE’S A BEAUTY IN BEING REJECTED, MISUNDERSTOOD, UNSEEN, AND UNSUPPORTED BY PEOPLE. IT TEACHES YOU TO RELY ON GOD FOR EVERYTHING…

Jenny.J (via she-lovesjc)(via worshipgifs)

ALLOW GOD TO CONTINUALLY SOFTEN YOUR HEART SO THAT IT BEATS FOR WHAT HIS HEART BEATS FOR — PEOPLE.

Christine Caine (via laurenarlene)(via worshipgifs)

GOD’S GRACE CALLS YOU TO SUFFER AND IT CALLS YOU TO WAIT, BUT IT NEVER CALLS YOU TO STAND IN YOUR OWN STRENGTH OR TO STAND ALONE.

Paul Tripp  (via godmoves)(via worshipgifs)

IN THE LONG RUN, THE SHARPEST WEAPON OF ALL IS A KIND AND GENTLE SPIRIT.

Anne Frank (via onlinecounsellingcollege)

I DIDN’T NEED LIVING MUCH TO REALIZE THAT ANY EXPERIENCE YOU MAY HAVE IN THIS WORLD WILL MAKE NO SENSE WITHOUT GOD ON YOUR SIDE.

Anne Nasc (via worshipgifs)(via worshipgifs)

Contemplative

Today was officially the last day of lessons for the first semester in university. I will be having my final exams during mid-sept and then i can really have a holiday break.

I learnt many things in university, especially on time management. This is the first time that i am studying on a trimester basis and so i am not used to the hectic schedules where the deadline for many assignments are really close to each other. It is even worse when all these assignments are mostly 1500 words essays but it is expected since i am studying Psychology. 

I have been trying to find the right balance between school work, rest and spending time with my friends. It is important for me to find the right balance because i do not want to spend most of my time stressing over school work and falling sick. After all school problems are actually minor as compared to other kinds of problems. What matters to me are my relationships with people and God. I have not been talking much to God except during Sundays or when i need Him and i feel bad for that. Spending time with God gives me spiritual nourishment and help to sustain my energy and morale even if i am mentally and physically tired. 

My grades so far have been quite okay. I passed all my assignments with Credits and i know that i still have to improve on it. Especially on the area of critical thinking because i do not elaborate enough and am too general with essays. The grading system in university is different. Its range are high distinction, distinction, credit, pass and fail. I do aim to get distinctions for my essays. 

Nevertheless i thank God for a great first semester for the good friends i made there and that i pass all my assignments.