Grateful for 2014

I turned 20 two days ago.

The feeling of turning 20 is very new and different for me although i had like majority of the year to process that fact. I felt like turning 20 marks a new phrase of my life as i entered adulthood. I feel uncertain and a bit fearful because now i have to really become independent. I no longer have much luxury over shrinking responsibilities and being immature or whatsoever. It is not that i was irresponsible ( obviously not) but i just felt that i don’t have that space anymore.

Being an adult simply means you have to be accountable for yourself totally from taking care of yourself, to being responsible for whatever roles you have and to fully bear the consequences for all the decisions you make.

Or maybe i just think too much and place too much expectations on myself.

But i know that i am not alone for i know God is with me to face all the uncertainties that this world brings. I am grateful for having God as my guide because i will definitely be really afraid if i were to go through this alone. Of course i have family and friends to support me too. But when problems become too personal to share and i could only keep it to myself, i can tell God freely for He knows what exactly i am going through.

I am grateful to God for this year. 2014 has been a really fruitful and exciting year for me.

I graduated as a business student from poly to working in IBM as a temp admin to entering university as a psychology undergrad.

In church, i took up more responsibilities as a leader.

I make new friends and strengthen the bond with old friends.

I have make more significant steps of moving on from the past through forgiving and focusing on the present.

I am finally pursuing my dream of wanting to help people by being in psychology.

Most importantly, i noticed more of God’s interventions in various aspects of my life. I am reassured through all those moments that He loves and cares for me. My faith in God strengthened even more in times of difficulties.

I learn the art of finding something good in every day. Because of that i have become more contented with what i have, become more firm on my values and become more cheerful.

This year has taught me on becoming more aware of the fact that i am actually loved if i could open my eyes bigger and stop dwelling on the past. That i am loved by my family, friends and God.

For this, i am deeply grateful for 2014.

God is amazing in even the tiniest things

So often i start blogging without a title because i always let myself just reveal whatever thoughts that i have been thinking about lately. No particular aim in mind.

So far pursuing psychology has been wonderful for me. Assignments and examinations has always been a chore for me but i refuse to let it ruin my interest in psychology for after all these are what makes up a student’s life. I have been learning about the various functions of the body, particularly on the brain and i am amazed. How different parts work together to produce a function in milliseconds without the human even noticing it. How every part of the body is intricately and carefully made, it is like there is a author behind this handiwork. Indeed God is amazing. Learning about all this makes me appreciate God and my body even more. From the surface, we humans seems like just normal beings but the things under the surface are the ones that are really beautiful and important. So often we always look just on the surface and base our value on physical appearance but it is really a shallow way of determining it. The fact that we can think for ourselves and have our own perceptions of things is already amazing because no other creatures have that at all.

One of the best ways for me to relieve stress is to just simply look at the sky. Everyday on my way from home to school and back, i will always tend to look up at the sky to appreciate the clouds and how blue the sky is. Looking up helps to free my mind because the sky have no boundaries and i really thank God for that. In this physical world, there are so many things marked with boundaries from physical stuff to school work and sometimes i can feel suffocated from all these boundaries. The sky is made by the hands of God and there are no limitations to it.

Lately i have been cooped up with work and not been really talking to God.  But God is still taking care of me and watching over me every single day from small things like helping to lighten the rain from heavy to a drizzle so that i can go home to ensuring i finish my home delivery mac dinner (which i am not supposed to) right on time before my dad comes back home to helping me with my school assignments. I see God in all of these things and i am just immensely grateful.

Indeed with God, everything makes sense. God is amazing.

Keeping the faith

This is the first time knowing that one of my family members have cancer.

My first experience. To be honest i do not know what to feel because i am not close to that person also.

But i have been praying and will continue to pray because i know that God hears prayers and that everything will be done according to His Will.

My faith in God has not weakened at all, in fact it has grown even stronger. Based on my walk with Him all this while, i personally know that He is a faithful, loving and compassionate God. He has always reassured me with His Word and promises whenever i felt like giving up. Most importantly His plans are always for my good and not to harm me.

So i am going to stick even closer to Him in this situation where the only thing i can do is to pray.

Yes God, i believe in You. May You show your loving nature to that person and bring strength and encouragement to all of us.

INFJ Strengths and Weaknesses

Strengths:

  • Creative – Combining a vivid imagination with a strong sense of compassion, INFJs use their creativity to resolve not technical challenges, but human ones. People with the INFJ personality type enjoy finding the perfect solution for someone they care about, and this strength makes them excellent counselors and advisors.
  • Insightful – Seeing through dishonesty and disingenuous motives, INFJs step past manipulation and sales tactics and into a more honest discussion. INFJs see how people and events are connected, and are able to use that insight to get to the heart of the matter.
  • Inspiring and Convincing – Speaking in human terms, not technical, INFJs have a fluid, inspirational writing style that appeals to the inner idealist in their audience. INFJs can even be astonishingly good orators, speaking with warmth and passion, if they are proud of what they are speaking for.
  • Decisive – Their creativity, insight and inspiration are able to have a real impact on the world, as INFJs are able to follow through on their ideas with conviction, willpower, and the planning necessary to see complex projects through to the end. INFJs don’t just see the way things ought to be, they act on those insights.
  • Determined and Passionate – When INFJs come to believe that something is important, they pursue that goal with a conviction and energy that can catch even their friends and loved ones off guard. INFJs will rock the boat if they have to, something not everyone likes to see, but their passion for their chosen cause is an inseparable part of their personality.
  • Altruistic – These strengths are used for good. INFJs have strong beliefs and take the actions that they do not because they are trying to advance themselves, but because they are trying to advance an idea that they truly believe will make the world a better place.

Weaknesses:

  • Sensitive – When someone challenges or criticizes INFJs’ principles or values, they are likely to receive an alarmingly strong response. People with the INFJ personality type are highly vulnerable to criticism and conflict, and questioning their motives is the quickest way to their bad side.
  • Extremely Private – INFJs tend to present themselves as the culmination of an idea. This is partly because they believe in this idea, but also because INFJs are extremely private when it comes to their personal lives, using this image to keep themselves from having to truly open up, even to close friends. Trusting a new friend can be even more challenging for INFJs.
  • Perfectionistic – INFJs are all but defined by their pursuit of ideals. While this is a wonderful quality in many ways, an ideal situation is not always possible – in politics, in business, in romance – and INFJs too often drop or ignore healthy and productive situations and relationships, always believing there might be a better option down the road.
  • Always Need to Have a Cause – INFJs get so caught up in the passion of their pursuits that any of the cumbersome administrative or maintenance work that comes between them and the ideal they see on the horizon is deeply unwelcome. INFJs like to know that they are taking concrete steps towards their goals, and if routine tasks feel like they are getting in the way, or worse yet, there is no goal at all, they will feel restless and disappointed.
  • Can Burn Out Easily – Their passion, poor patience for routine maintenance, tendency to present themselves as an ideal, and extreme privacy tend to leave INFJs with few options for letting off steam. People with this personality type are likely to exhaust themselves in short order if they don’t find a way to balance their ideals with the realities of day-to-day living.