Haven been blogging for the past few months because i have been busy with life and do not have anything to blog about. Life has been pretty smooth sailing.

Just heard the bad news from mum today that my maternal grandmother got hospitalized and that the cancer has spread to her bones. She previously went for a operation back in July to remove her breasts because that was where the cancer started. Apparently not all cancer cells were removed and this time it is terminal, she only have a period of time left to live.

The first time i heard about her having breast cancer, i was just shocked. I was relieved when the operation in July went smoothly and i thought it will be all fine again. But this time, i just felt really upset. It is my first time that i will be losing a immediate family member because so far everybody in my family is still living well thanks to God’s grace.

I was never close to my maternal grandmother. From young till now, she has always been cooped up in her room whenever i visited my mum. I only greeted her and see her only when she step out of the room to do some stuff. She is really quiet and don’t really talk except to my grandfather. I knew that she have some history of mental illness before but that is all i know about her.

I feel really upset that i did not really use the time to get to know her personally. I always find it hard to talk to her partly because she is always cooped up in her room and i do not know what to say. Now that she only have limited time left to live, the only thing i can do is to visit her and pray for her. Pray that she will know Christ.

Now i am just feeling really sad deep inside.



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